I’ll be honest, this whole leaving thing is hard. Really hard. And at this point, the sorrow of leaving eclipses the excitement of going. I feel a bit like a Pavlovian dog – when someone includes the word “leaving” in a sentence, my eyes fill. I can’t claim that I’m not a cryer anymore because I have spent so much time crying of late.
I love my life here in Maryland. I love my family. I love my church. I love my friends. I love my house. I love the Abingdon library and the Target and the YMCA – all less than five minutes from home. So the idea of leaving it all is very sad and my heart is often overcome with sorrow.
But this is sweet sorrow. The reason why this is so hard is because God is so good and He gives such good gifts. Would I want it to be easy? Would I want to only be excited about the new adventure awaiting us? Would I want to have one hour straight with my mother and not be reduced to tears? Would I want to worship with my church here and not cry at the thought of the Almengor’s not being behind me or Jack and Charli beside us? The answer is a definite no.
These gifts of an amazing family, church, friends and other simple pleasures come from the hand of a gracious God. This gracious God who gives such gifts to undeserving ones like me will be in Akron, Ohio. This is a hope I look forward to as I leave what is so dear. So as I weep, I rejoice that God who has been so good to me will continue to show goodness to me all the days of my life not because I am worthy, but because Jesus the worthy One died in my place suffering the wrath I deserve so that I might experience the favor He alone deserves.
John 1:16 And from His fullness we have all received grace upon grace.