I am comfortable with my ordinary-ness. But what I am not comfortable with is total inadequacy. And yet, today, like so many other days, I am faced with my inadequacy to do all that needs to get done in a way that glorifies God. I have a lot of housework to do. I have a lot of schoolwork to accomplish. I have errands to run, and a baseball game to attend. But more than these things, I have hearts to shepherd throughout the whole process: mine as well as my children’s. This is what I find too difficult. I can clean. I can teach. I can even run from here to there. But can I deal with the inevitable interruptions, sinful attitudes, and relational conflict that are sure to accompany life today?
And yet, here in the moments when I feel my inability to do the very life God has ordained for me, is where I can either look at myself and be discouraged, or look to God and have faith. Today, like so many other days, I am faced with my inadequacy, but I am turning my face away from me to my heavenly Father. He is generous with the abundance of grace at His disposal. This grace includes pardon for the sins that I will commit. And this grace includes strength to do the work He has called me to. I can bring my children to Him to do the same. It is God who will work in me to will and to do for His good pleasure.
Father, help me to be grateful for the circumstances of life that keep me closer to reality about myself. My pride makes me want to be competent and capable in everything. But in your kindness you expose my weakness, not to discourage me, but to humble me and to show forth Your power which is made perfect in my weakness.
2 Peter 1:3 His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence