To my shame there are days when I have thought to myself, “I can’t do this mom thing all day another day.” This isn’t because my children are particularly difficult. This isn’t because I have any ailment or disease. I’m not living under the pressure of single parenthood, or having to endure the hardship of working outside the home. No. The only reason my life is difficult for me to embrace with joy and gratitude at times is the simple fact that I am a selfish woman. I am the reason my life feels hard at times. How un-Christlike I have discovered I am. With so many opportunities to humbly lay down my life and serve these precious treasures, my children; I choose to complain, and even at times resent the constant demands of motherhood. I want to escape.
Joni Erickson Tada shuts my mouth. I was freshly humbled as I read her testimony on the girltalk blog today. My life is so pain-free, trial-free. How can I read about Joni’s humble dependence on God for strength in the midst of a real trial and not be convicted and inspired?
God, help me to be humble and realize how pleasant the lines have fallen to me. Forgive me for complaining. Help me to realize that I am so weak, I even strain under the little weight motherhood brings. You are Joni’s strength and her smile. Please be my strength and my smile.